I am tempted to keep the car in drive, and leave it all behind.  

I realized, that I'm not doing anything with my life. I've been told time and time again, not just from my parents, but from others, that I have potential to exceed everything I'm doing today, but I'm just not doing anything with it. What am I doing? I used to be so much, but I've degraded to what I am now. Whatever I am not, for better or worse, it's what I am.

I need to do something with myself, make a name for myself. I need to exceed my own standards by a lot, because those standards are set pretty low, for myself. Sure I have a 90+ average, but I can do better, I know for sure I can get a 95+ average, if I actually try and whatnot. I'm such a damn clown. I got myself out of the National Junior Honor Society, just solely on freaking conduct. Are you kidding me? What are you doing?

Get it straight Cyril. Or you're going down.






""Welcome to the real world" she said to me"