Progess?  

So yesterday I had a group meeting with my group from PNYM, and Melvin. We met up at Carlo's. Throughout these past what 7 months of going to St. Ladislaus every Sunday evening, but throughout my whole time going there, I never really thought I could be myself. Just let loose, be who you guys at home think I am. But lately, like we've been able to chill I guess, like real friends. I never really was sure if they considered me a real friend because we would just meet up like once a week.

I still have yet to be myself around them, I still have yet to make jokes, I still have yet to just fool around. Maybe that time will soon come. I hope it will, because I don't think they see me for who I really am yet. I mean sometimes my behavior around them is like the behavior I have around my friends. The weird facial expressions, well yeah, that's probably the only thing, the weird facial expressions. But I've yet to express my views verbally. I know I've got a lot to say, and maybe it'll come out, pretty soon. I mean it's what I'm hoping for. Maybe it'll come now, maybe it'll come in the near future. I just hope that I've got friends in them. Since I started there I was basically alone. I started there alone, I had no real connections there. I had Brian, but he was to preoccupied with the people there. There was also Louie and Issa, andJamie, but they never ended up going. So I was alone. But I'm making progress, and that's all I need right now. Taking it step by step.

"Never discourage anyone... who continually makes progress, no matter how slow"